Ramblings

My Lincoln is growing like a weed.

I say this every month, but he is growing so fast!

He is 11 months and 12 days old.

He is officially walking all over the place

And running into everything

And getting into everything!

My house is constantly a mess because of this - oh well :)

He can climb up the stairs and can successfully climb down the stairs.

He knows how to get 'down' from everything now too - although his depth prescription is a little off still :)

He signs more and lets you know when he's done.

He is such a little flirt. He'll tilt his head to the side and smile at all the pretty ladies

I love my little stinker!


In other news - and lots of ramblings (yes this isn't all about Lincoln)


I'm starting school on Monday. I have bitter sweet feelings about it. I want to be graduated and done with school SO BAD! I had to take 15 credits this semester and next semester to graduate in April, but since it's too hard to take that many between mine and James' schedule I am only taking 13, which means I will have to take another semester. So graduation looks like it'll be after the first summer block. I have 14 elective credits to take! 14! I wish colleges would do away with electives. I really don't to be taking oceanography. seriously. Although, I am grateful that I do get to get an education. It will be so nice to have a Bachelors degree behind my belt. I don't plan on working once I graduate but just in case I need to, hopefully it'll help me get a job in something I like. But mostly likely it wont because you pretty much need a Masters to do anything these days. But lets be honest, a masters is not in my education future.

My sister Kelli is having a baby in one month! It is her first and I am so excited!! I am so excited to hold a new born again. I got to hold my little nephew Hudson, but they moved to Chicago when he was 8 weeks old. Totally not fair. I hope being able to hold Kelli's little guy will help me get over this 'baby hungry' issue i've been having...

which leads me to my next ramblings ...

I would love to have another baby. I have always imagined having a semi large family - 5 kids. I say semi large because I have to compare to James' LARGE family of 13 kids. But I can see why families just stick to one child. I love having it be just me and Lincoln. Especially now since he is walking and 'talking'.  He is my little bud, my side-kick. We have so much fun together.  It's easy with him. Some of my biggest fears about having another child are these: first I worry that I will be sick like I was with Lincoln. I worry that I won't be able to care and give Lincoln all the love and attention he needs. I worry that my energy level will be zero. How am I suppose to play cars with Linc? I also don't like the fact that it will never be just me and Lincoln. It will be a lot harder with another child on my hip. Will I be able to love another child as much as linc? And don't get me started about how freaked out I am for labor!

I told James about all my fears and he just laughed and said, 'you better get over that quick.' He's right,
I do need to get over it. But seriously, those are my fears. Silly I know. Very very silly. And very very selfish. As I sit here thinking about my fears I started thinking about the families that want more kids but cant. I am truly grateful for Lincoln and the joy he brings into my life. I would be extremely grateful if we were able to have another child. I shouldn't be taking motherhood for granted.